When you see the matador in a dream, then such dream offers you to get ready for the difficult tasks you will have to make.
Dream dictionary: mata de calabaza dream meanings
To see yourself as a matador in a dream suggests that you need to challenge and prepare yourself for some obstacles in something youre working at.
If you dreamed that you had stigmata, then it shows your devotion and hard work you did because of someone. The distress and anguish will disappear soon, as the time goes by.